Today marks another milestone along my journey of recovery. The abuse I experienced which resulted in PTSD, trauma, and many years of struggle occurred six years ago today. In some ways it feels like six decades of struggle I have walked through, but in other ways it feels like it just happened.
Each year has held milestones along my journey, but this year more than any other has been the turning point. It has been a year of big steps, significant change and healing, and moving clearly in a new direction.
- Joined the core leadership team of a church plant, one that really wants to reach the lost and broken
- Started actively serving with six organizations in my community (most of these organizations sought me out which was an answer to a prayer that the Lord would open doors when he felt I was ready)
- Began networking with people in my community and all over the nation
- Helped run a major medical/dental clinic to serve my community
- Joined with a group addressing human trafficking and hoping to raise awareness in the church about trauma
- Started a book about what I have learned through my journey
- Recognized the roots of my issues come from deep shame and started that recovery journey
- Began openly speaking about and sharing the testimony of the changes Christ has brought into my life this year+
- Last week I was notified that the pastor from my last church is finally ready to meet and attempt to reconcile
As I move into next year I already know of two major milestones that lie ahead
- I will be leading a recovery group for abuse and trauma
- I will be a part of a special program. Through that I hope there are outcomes that raise awareness of trauma and recovery, and teaches that brokenness and “not being okay” are beautiful things.
Tonight I had a chance to share part of my testimony with a friend who didn’t know anything about my past. He listened and personally identified with parts of my journey of trauma and recovery.
As I left, he stopped me and going out of his way to make an impact he looked he straight in the eyes and said, “You are a hero. It is incredible to hear the story and learn more about the depth that exists. You truly are a hero.”
To those of you who are also on this journey of recovery, and who face the daily struggle to recover from abuse, I want to say “You are a hero!” You daily face challenges that others don’t understand. You find courage to keep trying. You stand up for others who face injustice. You take steps forward, even when you don’t want to. Thank you for your courage and strength. You are heroes, and you are making an impact and a difference.