We live in a world where things go wrong, where people get hurt, and where people make mistakes. That is a hard and painful reality to accept sometimes, especially when we are walking through that pain.
Restoring the Heart: A journey of restoring trust in the Church and spiritual leaders is a work that is coming from my broken and healing heart. In December 2004 I was spiritually abused by the leaders of a church. This resulted in huge issues in my life and faith for the following four and a half years. In July 2008 I joined a new church. I was still recovering from what had happened in the previous church, but I faithfully followed where I believed God was leading me. I was still learning how to trust, walk in faith, and to overcome PTSD and other emotions tied to that abuse. I was disillusioned with the church and dealing with a lot of confusion, but pursuing after my faith to the best of my ability. Over time the leaders at this church decided they could not walk with me and they excommunicated me claiming they didn’t even believe I was a Christian.
This left me at rock bottom. I had to decide if God was real, if I had a sincere faith in him, or if everything in my life for the last 25 years of living as a Christian was a lie. God met me there. The Christianity I knew wasn’t working, but God was bigger than my lack of faith. He healed my heart, restored my faith, and released me from the bondage, confusion, and pain I had lived in for over four years. Since June 2009 I have found such incredible love and forgiveness from God and restoration in my life. God has opened doors for me and I am now actively involved in another church, and am part of the core leadership of a new church plant. I am more in love with God than ever before! I have been disillusioned, abused, rejected, abandoned, and lost. So far the leaders of my last church will not forgive me or even communicate, but God continues to restore, heal, and use those who faithfully follow him. The people of the church gave up on me, but Christ never did. He saved me and has changed my life. I hope that my story and testimony of the Lord’s work in my life will be a testimony to others.
The fact that people are often reinjured when trying to return to churches and recover is a tragedy and a growing problem as few pastors and church leaders have taken the time to be trained and educated on the issues around spiritual abuse, disillusionment, and rejection. This site is a way to share my story, continue to work through my own healing, and help to open the door for others who have been hurt in our churches or by spiritual leaders.
If you have walked through a time of abuse or disillusionment too, I hope you will join me on the path to recovery and healing.
If you are a church leader who wants to minister to those who need your caring hand and heart and want to share with us and learn from us we would love for you to participate.
Restoring my heart and my trust in the church and learning to trust other spiritual leaders has been and continues to be a journey with a lot of hard work. I have experienced such amazing change that I desire to share that with others and to minister to those who are hurting and disillusioned in their faith. The desire of my heart is to live a life pursuing after God, and to do that I need to be in relationship with others. I am no expert, I am just another broken person who is seeking to find a restored heart and a new life, but if my story can encourage and help you, or if I can answer questions and offer insights from my own experience I would like to walk this journey with you. One of the most painful parts of my journey is that I walked it alone for a long time. Maybe we can now walk it together. Are you willing to walk this path with me?
Restoringheart (aka Sherie)