I recently came across this story, and while it was likely written about people coming to faith, I think it also can apply to coming out of the darkness of abuse and coming to the light of healing, hope, faith, and restoration. This story reminds me of my own story, although I had known what light was before going into the darkness of abuse and the spiritual confusion that followed, I lost my memory of what the light was like. I wonder what the story will make you think of and feel.
People lived in the darkness for so long he didn’t know that it was dark. The dark was normal, and since he never experienced delight, dark didn’t seem dark to him. It wasn’t as though he woke up in the morning Crane and longing for light. Add it wasn’t that he had to work to accept the darkness. No, darkness was all he ever known. Sure, he fumbled around, bumped into things, and fell down a lot, but none of it bothered him. It was what every day was like for him. He didn’t really long to see. He didn’t long to see each as he didn’t know that there was anything worth seeing. He really didn’t think that he saw all there was to see – darkness. He didn’t have an accurate sense of size, shape, or color. He had little sense of beauty. He didn’t really know what things looks like because the darkness you lived in was so pervasive that the objects around him were but shadows, logs, and blurs.
He had no idea what he looked like because he’d never released seeing himself. He thought he knew what he looked like because he’d touched his face and run his hands down his torso, but he’d never seen himself in the light. He was actually quite content in his darkened world, and he was quite happy to do what people do when they lived in the dark place. He just got up every day and did what you do when you can see. Except he didn’t know that he couldn’t see, because he’d never seen, because he’d always lived in darkness.
Then it happened one day. He had looks long for it. He hadn’t asked for it. It just happened. The shaft of light exploded into his world. At first it scared and confused him. He didn’t know what it was and is all I us didn’t seem able to take it and. All he really knew was that it was different from the darkness he’d always known. It was a bright and beautiful and it hurts as I us, but he couldn’t stop looking. He couldn’t keep himself from walking toward the light. The closer he got to the light, the more he began to see what was around him. There was a whole world of shapes and colors he never seen. But something even more profound began to happen to him. It was shocking, disturbing, and exciting all on its. The closer he got to the lights, the more he saw himself! The first thing he realized was that he was naked. For the first time he felt naked. For the first time his nakedness made him uncomfortable. But he not only realized he was naked, he realized he was dirty. And not only was the third see, he was confronted with the fact that he was lame.
He kept walking toward the light, and he felt sure you see did so, but the joy was mixed with grief. As he walked see began to weep. He never wept like this before. He wept at the pain he felt over his condition. He did not know how dirty he was. He’d not known how crippled he was, and he felt overwhelmed at what he now knew. He was stunned by the fact that he been this way since birth and he’d never known it. He was shocked that he’d never figured out that he moved with a limp. But his shot was quickly mixed with the deepest longing he’d ever felt. It was like he was starved for something he never eaten it now wanted desperately. What he wanted desperately for the first time in his life was to be clean. For the first time in his life he wasn’t satisfied being crippled. He longed to be healed. And even though he didn’t understand light at all, for the first time in his life he wanted to live and it. And he couldn’t imagine ever been content to live in the darkness again.
So he started to run. He ran because he felt drawn – Braun to the light that so radically altered his world. He wanted to be in the light because somehow he knew if he could get him the lights, he’d be washed and he’d be clean. Somehow he knew that if he could get to the light he would be healed. He’d never run before because he knew he couldn’t run each as he was lame, but he did run. The light was drawing him. The light was giving him strength. He remembers well those darkened days and that darkened place. He remembers it all with a broken and celebratory heart’s. And he is very aware that not only has he been cleansed and healed, he’s been given the ability to see as well. And he’s deeply grateful that he’s been clothed with what he couldn’t purchase and that keep within him has been placed the desire to be clean.
(Quoted from Whiter than Snow by Paul David Tripp, pp 45-47)